Our God is Greater

When Brad and I first started talking about the idea of fostering-adopt the 3 kids, we were still not even engaged! It was something that he brought up first, and I thought he was crazy. The more we thought about it, prayed about it, and spent time with the kids- the more our hearts felt pulled that direction.
Our hearts were telling us one thing, but the world was telling us another. When consulting with others and sometimes just getting caught up in what if's we would hear:
"don't you need a ring first before you decide to adopt kids..." (which i agreed with)
"you need your honeymoon time" "You don't know how to be parents..."
"you are acting out of emotion" "It would be too stressful" "The kids have too many issues"
"kids cost too much money" "you don't even have an appropriate house for them..."
"you can't save the world..." " their biological families are too crazy"
So then came along the awesome day that we got engaged. Without taking away from the exciting time that was, we both knew- we needed to make a decision about the kids.
I knew in my heart what I wanted to do, but it was all so unknown and scary and above all- I wanted my husband to be to make the final decision.
So we decided to not adopt. We emailed friends and family and told them our decision. We got emails back saying it was the right decision. Everyone seemed relieved.

Except us. The week that followed was the worst of our lives. We just could not imagine these 3 little ones with any other family than us. We knew that they were meant to be our forever family.
So after praying more- we both knew that these kids were to be ours! We then spread the word to friends and family... it then looked like we were even more crazy.
To this day we still have people that aren't 100% supportive of our decision, but to me-

I see E's smile when he saw me come and surprise him at his school party.

I see N's bright eyes begging for one more song before bed.

I see L with all of his new cousins at Brad's family Christmas party, looking so content and at peace.

And I KNOW all is right.

One of the songs that inspired me during this decision time and still does is Chris Tomlin's Our God is Greater..... "and if our God is for us, than who can ever stop us, and if our God is for us- than what can stand against us." These Bible inspired lyrics remind me that God's plan's our MUCH greater than our own.

In 2 days we will have our first Christmas all together. I bet God will bring us moments that will confirm our decision again!

Blessings.