Mom Unexpectant
In one year, we got engaged, took on 3 foster children, were married, moved in together and are now starting a newlywed life together as a big happy family. Join me in my thoughts as I process this HUGE, amazing transition and other random thoughts on life! Thanks for reading!
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Guess Who is Back?!
One of the biggest decisions we made as a family this year was for me to not return to my job as a full time family therapist. This was a hard choice. The additional income was amazing and for the most part, I really loved my job. However- childcare for 4 children is not cheap! Once the kids were adopted last November, we lost the funding that the state had been giving us to pay for childcare. So not only would I have to leave my newborn to go back to work, but I would be making about $2 an hour. Not worth it!
We have been blessed abundantly in so many ways financially- including me being employed by my church to work part time and being able to continue to coach tennis. We have very generous families that help out a lot, and my husband is doing awesome at his job. God is good.
I plan to blog a lot about my transition from full time working mom to mostly stay at home mom. I have been learning a lot about myself and who God has created me to be in this transition.
Anyways, this is just an intro to me getting back into the swing of things! I hope someone cares!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Choosing to be Pro-Life
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Unexpected Feedback...
The first thing that always comes to my mind is self doubt on my parenting- I feel like everyone sees these things and thinks our family is out of control! I feel like I am not doing a good job. I feel like giving up.
Then I start to think of how that person is not in my shoes. They most likely have had natural kids and have had time to nurture their child, hone their parenting skills and bring them up accordingly. They are not having therapists come in twice a month to meet with their children and give them evidenced based, credible parenting advice for children like ours.
They most likely are expecting our children to behave like theirs.
And that is just not going to happen! At least no time soon. Brad and I were just talking the other day about how it has been 6 months since the kids moved in. We have seen SO much progress with the kids....yet we still have so many worries and concerns for things they are still processing and adjusting to. Then there is us- We are still adjusting and processing!!! I feel like the recovery mentality of "one day at a time" is our motto! There have been so many times when I know I have not made the best decisions in handling things.
To our advantage, we serve a GREAT God who gives us his GRACE to cover all of the areas that we fail in. So thankful for that!! We truly are a work in progress, just like every other family out there.... so please- go easy on us! I promise I will never tell you how to parent your child- unless you are on my caseload and I am being paid to do it!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
We bought a Zoo
Friday, December 23, 2011
Our God is Greater
Our hearts were telling us one thing, but the world was telling us another. When consulting with others and sometimes just getting caught up in what if's we would hear:
"don't you need a ring first before you decide to adopt kids..." (which i agreed with)
"you need your honeymoon time" "You don't know how to be parents..."
"you are acting out of emotion" "It would be too stressful" "The kids have too many issues"
"kids cost too much money" "you don't even have an appropriate house for them..."
"you can't save the world..." " their biological families are too crazy"
So then came along the awesome day that we got engaged. Without taking away from the exciting time that was, we both knew- we needed to make a decision about the kids.
I knew in my heart what I wanted to do, but it was all so unknown and scary and above all- I wanted my husband to be to make the final decision.
So we decided to not adopt. We emailed friends and family and told them our decision. We got emails back saying it was the right decision. Everyone seemed relieved.
Except us. The week that followed was the worst of our lives. We just could not imagine these 3 little ones with any other family than us. We knew that they were meant to be our forever family.
So after praying more- we both knew that these kids were to be ours! We then spread the word to friends and family... it then looked like we were even more crazy.
To this day we still have people that aren't 100% supportive of our decision, but to me-
I see E's smile when he saw me come and surprise him at his school party.
I see N's bright eyes begging for one more song before bed.
I see L with all of his new cousins at Brad's family Christmas party, looking so content and at peace.
And I KNOW all is right.
One of the songs that inspired me during this decision time and still does is Chris Tomlin's Our God is Greater..... "and if our God is for us, than who can ever stop us, and if our God is for us- than what can stand against us." These Bible inspired lyrics remind me that God's plan's our MUCH greater than our own.
In 2 days we will have our first Christmas all together. I bet God will bring us moments that will confirm our decision again!
Blessings.
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Who do you sleep with?
Friday, December 2, 2011
I just had to do it!!
Anyways- I just have a lot of thoughts on the foster-adoption process, getting married, being a newlywed, transitioning into parenthood, pop culture and life in general!